Just as I thought!

Okay, so of course I am sleepy. But the missed sleep was well worth it. The session last night went very well. I am getting more excited about this project as the time passes. I am just insane enough to think that someone will hear my work and ask me to star in a sitcom of my own, with Maxwell as my love interest. Ahh wouldn't that be the life! Getting paid to kiss all up on his urban hand suite! Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh...sorry. Slipped into one of those fantasy typing dreams. Forgive me. I have been in such a weird place lately, confusion has really altered my states. I have missed church twice, don't care to sing in the choir anymore, not been to choir practice and I have no idea why. I have no desire to, is that bad? I love God and know where my help comes from and appreciate all the many blessings that has been given to me, but I still find myself in this place where I feel empty. Feel that maybe I am stuck in this alternative time zone where hearts don't really beat, they blink. I have embraced my insanity so that part doesn't bother me, I have always been different....but these feelings are unfamiliar, unknown, and some unwanted. I pray that God fills me and allow me to come back to the person that I was destined to be. I pray to return to the path that was set out for me. God give me my joy and praise back for I am nothing without you.

Amen